My php madness has been terminated with a cloud of doubt…Oh well… back to the creative world, I guess I just cannot be a hard core nerd.

Canon 60D has totally occupied my mind. Testing, testing and more testing… The never ending thoughts “I wish I had the full size CMOS, I wonder if f1.4 lens would be a lot easier to do portrait, I wish I had the zoom lens…” The itchiness for creating something is back, that’s wonderful…So much to learn again.

Accidentally found an ideal girl friend description on online “Innocent, inspiring, cute but not hot, creative, cheerfull, 20-28, short hair…”  “the kind of girls i like are rare and specially in LA” … Looks familiar, other than the short hair part. Ok. inside joke. Being here for a while now, I can see why this is hard. I mean look at those breakdowns, “young and hot” “bikini bodies” “total knock out” that or “Female, All ethnicity, love of John Doe” After a while, I don’t even know what role fit me unless I was a model at least that’s an easy shoe horn to fit into.

All I can say, it’s OK. It was worse in China. Just Hold on there.

Speaking of China, I have been reading Ane’s book on China’s 1978-1998. Such an interesting period of time. The age of normal people heroes, aka, smart brave gamblers. haha.